Satellite

Three years! I have given three years of my life to this company! I have made my life a satellite of this company! My life revolves around and sometimes gets eclipsed as well. Does the moon feel like it is there at his fixed path because of the Earth? And if he decides to leave his big brother it will be lost like a rock travelling aimlessly in the universe ready to be sucked in by same other foreign body.
Food that I eat, bus that I ride, chair on which I sit, things that I see, sounds that I hear have this company's stamp on them. My day starts with the beep coming from swipe machine missing this sound makes me guy whose status is unknown. I have already made myself comfortable living in the conditioned world where neatly combed hairs are more important than fresh air for which my lungs are dying for. I have given myself a number which helps people to decide the amount of respect they should give to me. My thoughts are bounded by policies and my window to the world is restricted by work hours. I can't even do my work if my coding tool doesn't auto complete my sentence. My 'thanks' to someone are as meaningless as his 'welcomes' to me.
My aspirations are data for Aspiration Tracking Tools, My long day in office ends with a justification for taking a seat in a late night bus, my route to survival are blocked by client compulsions but my machines are backed up to save my copy pasted dead code. My hard work of a year is nothing if I waste 3 attempts to numerically prove my knowledge.

My life is revolving around my company but why is it not crying for the azadi? It will never, because it's learning it's learning each and everyday. It is learning what to do and what not to do. It is meeting people, lots of people and lots of wonderful people. Good looking, smart, intelligent, talented, multi talented, excellent managers, technically brilliant programmers, movie buffs, sports fanatics, lazies, cruels, pessimists, fitness freaks, flirts, committed, people enjoying life, people blaming others for their own inabilities, people working to earn paisa, people working as their passion, people working to get good ratings or working just because they have to work somewhere. My life is watching people leaving, it is watching new people coming, it understands that other moving trains give you feeling of going ahead and it tries to persuade itself to believe in it.

My life gets happy when it sees sense of appreciation on the people's faces, when it sees that it is hot property in the market, it gets sense of pride when someone considers it good just because of his employer then it also plays its part in the game to praise his company to retain self value, it adds to the flurry of praises towards its founder to give itself the sense of being blessed by the almighty.

And then it waits for the countless opportunities waiting for him. One day it will decide to go for them. One day it will spread its wings and will run towards the horizon to take off, to reach the heights. That day it will understand that today it is flying because he waited on the firm ground to strengthen his weak wings. It always wanted to fly long and not early.

Thanks Infy for everything you gave me!

Somewhere Down The Line

Somewhere down the line I would love to love someone would love to be loved but it's fine for me even nobody loves me because somewhere down the line somebody will teach someone to love me!

Somewhere down the line I would love to be a free bird and to roam around the world but it's ok even if I don't become because somewhere down the line I would manage to climb the ladder amongst all this chaos and will have my own car and own home to know that I have changed my definition of freedom!

Somewhere down the line I would love to take up the people's cause and to work for the poor but it's ok even if I don't manage because somewhere down the line I will understand that working for the poor was to enrich some other kinds of poor

Somewhere down the line I would love to be successful but it's ok even if I don't because somewhere down the line I would know that once you reach the success it no longer remains a success but a prerequisite of next success.

Somewhere down the line I would learn to see the world in more beautiful way but it's ok even if If I don't able to because somewhere down the line I would know that some more important people are doing it already!

Crossroads

Life is at the crossroads. Everybody's life is at the crossroads! Whereever I can see I can see people trying to figure out a way, forget about bad or good, all they all want is a way. Everyone wants to move ahead but all the roads are looking the same. Some of them are thinking the road they have taken is bumpy but yeah they are sure this will lead them to one beautiful avenue of hope and dream. Some thinking their road is beautiful and all they need to is to pump some fuel so no one can stop them! 'I am already on my way to dreams!' Failing to understand that their car is being driven by someone sitting on the back seat! Well, these twenties are tricky. They really are!

All are looking for someone. No one is sure whether they really want it but everyone is searching something. What am I doing? Am I looking for someone? Yes! I am! But am I in desparate need? No, I am not! Then am I really looking for someone? ummm! Man you confused me! Really! What the hell! I am bored of being confused!

All are trying to change themselves to get something they don't have! Man! I need to change! I definitely cannot compete with these super species around me! I am the ugly duckling! But hey hang on! Do I really need to change? I am also unique like everyone else! I have my own set of pluses! But are my pluses as good as his? ummm! Should I change? Or should I improve?

All are trying to learn new things! hmm! I am the only one who is sitting idle! Com'on! I am gonna learn something! But hey learning is what I was doing for last 20 odd years! Then what's new in that! For all these years I learnt and learnt! Now the time has come for me to do nothing! Perhaps I should learn to enjoy! Gosh! Again learning!! God Please save me!

They say twenties is THE time in your life! Well, yeah it is! Suddenly my brain has started sending pulses million times faster than it has sent all these years! Work, life, education, sports, responsibilities, fun, support, advice, betrayal, success, heartbreak, love, hope, dreams, money!

Well, all the decades of my life have booked their seats in these poor little twenties! My twenties are choosing my future for my eighties!

Nothing to Write!

For last four days, I am trying my best to write something but it looks like words which usually hover around me like garland sellers outside a busy and in-demand temple have deserted me like ad agencies whould leave a fallen star.

I asked many, demanded a good and intersting topic on which I could write. Someone said, 'You can write about relationships'. What can I write on relationships? For me relationships are like those beautiful Mercs kept behind a glass wall which I can only watch from outside but can't feel . Someone else said 'Write on Tibet Matter'. Naah! I am not in the mood to write on such high and cold place and issue too! I don't think my writing is gonna help anyone to understand or resolve that issue. Some big fish has gulped a smaller one and other people want that to be freed. Even if they have swallowed many with great pride in the name of their constitutions. It's game big countries like to play often.

One chap said, 'Try writing about your friends!' Hmm! that's an interesting suggestion! But when I talk about real people I usually make fun of them eventhough I myself is great raw material to write humour on! So it's not funny to make fun of others.

Someone said, 'Hey! Write anything but not on Cricket!' Gosh! This was hard to digest! I always boast about my great cricketing knoweldge! I can give big lecture about playing cricket to the best of the cricket players! They create statistics and then I talk Statistics! Frankly, talking stats is better! Form doesn't affect your performance in doing that! And now people don't even want me write on it! It's like asking an opposition leader not to boycott the parliament session. It's his bread and butter. He cannot survive without that.

So today, I am writing about nothing. It's a great feeling when you can write and still about nothing. Just like Sidhu! He talks and talks about nothing. Like Reshammiya! He sings and sings about nothing. Like Aaj Tak! It gives news but news about nothing! Like all of us! We are living but living for nothing!